15w0d

15w0d....They say the Little Peanut is the size of an apple or approximately 4 inches long/2.47 ounces.


All I can say, is WOW...it still feels so unreal that all of this is happening. My belly seems to be getting bigger but I can't feel the baby move yet. I feel like I'm waiting for it but the doctor keeps telling me 18ish weeks. BUT, I swear I felt something on 14w6d...I'm not sure if I'm making it up or just anticipating it so much but...I swear I felt something. I was actually on the phone and in the mid-left side of my lower abdomen there was just a little bubble. It felt a little like gas but it wasn't in the right place and went away really quick. It caught me off guard...but, who knows. One of my friends said that when they first felt their DD move, it was almost like a goldfish bumping into the glass bowl it was swimming in....but, I'm not sure what that feels like :) I do, however, see people online posting about how they have felt the baby sooner...so I hope that was it... I just anticipate it so much and want it to happen!


Another story, I was sitting on the couch the other day and the right side of my lower abdomen was rock hard and the left side was squishy. I told hubby to touch it and he didn't get it. I told him "Just touch my stomach" and he was like "Why?" Totally didn't get it...so I explained to him that I wanted him to feel the difference and he looked me straight in the eyes and said all Rafiki-ish (ya know, from the Lion King)..."It is NOT time."

I tried not to take it personally and just walked away, shaking my head. I know he's stressed out with work and moving (Did I tell you we bought a new house and are moving on June 17th?) AND THEN throw the baby on top of that. He specifically told me he doesn't think he's going to be a good dad and he's scared of failing. But, I just want him to be excited. Maybe after this move, he'll come around...we shall see. A lot of my girlfriends said it took some time for their men to come around...cross those fingers!


I also think I'm starting to feel those "round ligament pains" that supposedly come with the second trimester. Its a sharp pain or jabbing feeling in the lower belly/groin area on one or both sides. It hasn't been that uncomfortable yet but I've felt more of a "muscle pulling" on the left side when I get up fast or if I'm moving around, especially out of bed. Several thick ligaments surround and support the uterus as it grows during pregnancy. One of them is called the round ligament and it connects the front part of the uterus to the groin. It normally tightens and relaxes slowly but as the baby/uterus grows it becomes more strained.  Sudden movements can cause it to tighten quickly resulting in the sudden/quick jabbing feeling. This is normal, per the doctor and WebMD.


We go back to the doc on the 16th of June -- just a little Doppler visit and then we're scheduled for our 20 week ultrasound on July 6th!! People call this the anatomy scan but I think it's also referred to as a Level 2 scan, a mid-pregnancy ultrasound or an Anomaly Scan.  I was hoping we'd have it before the 4th of July so we could bring the good news home to the family over the holiday...but, all will be fine. They said if the baby cooperates, we should be able to find out if we're having a boy or a girl, too. SO exciting! Since I was little, I have always wanted a daughter. So, from the beginning, I told myself it was a boy...but hubby really wants a girl. I'll be happy with either :) But, my biggest wish is just finding out all is healthy and happy -- growing to spec!